I AM

"When evening came, His disciples went down to the sea, and they took a boat and were going across the sea to Capernaum. It was now dark, and still Jesus had not [yet] come back to them. Meanwhile, the sea was getting rough and rising high because of a great and violent wind that was blowing. [However] when they had rowed three or four miles, they saw Jesus walking on the sea and approaching the boat. And they were afraid (terrified).

But Jesus said to them, It is I; be not afraid! [I AM; stop being frightened!]

Then they were quite willing and glad for Him to come into the boat. And now the boat went at once to the land they had steered toward. [And immediately they reached the shore toward which they had been slowly making their way.]" - John 6:16-21

What a jewel within a familiar tale of Jesus! Jesus is crossing atop the water to the beleaguered boat full of His disciples. Amidst the wind and storming waves, their leader approaches in a manner outside their understanding. Other versions say they feared He was a ghost.

Then He reveals Himself: "I AM; stop being frightened."

I AM, God's simple and succinct and profound name for Himself. Is any other clarifier needed? I AM creator, provider, protector, almighty, incomparable, unchanging, love everlasting...

I AM.

Solid, faithful and steadfast. No need to fear, I AM more than anything. What reassurance in the midst of an unnerving storm! God reminding who and what He is.

But this is Jesus speaking, revealing Himself not only as Son of God, but Emmanuel, God with us.

I wonder, did the disciples feel an outpouring of peace as their Prince stepped into the boat? Did the wild weather fade out of their awareness as they took in His words?

Is this not how Christ comes to us in our trials and storms? Walking into our circumstances unaffected and master of them. Reaching out as we flounder, probably praying, "HELP!!"

How often does He need to hail us with a reminder of Who He is when we are buffeted and focused on our struggles? Or is it just me that gets swamped in this life? And, like the disciples, need a few moments to move from "what now" to "oh thank you, Lord," to "welcome aboard, Captain!"

It doesn't say, in this version, that Jesus calmed the weather. No, only that suddenly they could quickly reach the shore they had been battling unsuccessfully toward. Safe harbor.

To me this was a delightful story for this Advent season as I prepare to celebrate the coming of Jesus into the tempest-tossed world, to welcome once again the Prince of Peace who tells us, "Fear not! I AM here with you."

I'm a collector of Scripture verses; what verses remind you that God is with you and you need not fear?

Blessings,

Becca

When I Look to the Heavens

Psalm 8:3-6
"When I look at Your heavens, the work of Your fingers,
the moon and the stars that You have established;
What are human beings that You are mindful of them,
mortals that You care for them?
Yet You have made them a little lower than God
and have crowned them with glory and honor.
You have given them dominion over the works of Your hands;
You have put all things under their feet."

The dichotomy of Creator and created. The baffling wonder of grace. The God who orchestrates galaxies and weaves life from subatomic particles is the same God who cares intimately for you and me, who set in motion 2000 years ago the mighty act of redemption and salvation for all. Who can wrap their mind around an almighty God who wants to be a personal Savior and companion?

Like the chorus from "How Many Kings" by Downhere:

"How many gods would pour out their hearts
to romance a world that is torn all apart?
How many fathers gave up their sons for me?
Only One did that for me."

Mind-bending, heart-storming Truth. God is! How can any of us stay unchanged once we've been touched by even the hint of His glory around us? Actually looked at the wonders around us on a daily basis. His sunrises and sunsets never fail to stop me in my tracks, but what dropped to my knees one morning was the quiet full-moonset over the ocean as the sun rose behind me. What catches my breath is the wide-eyed wonder of a newborn and the glowing face of loved ones saying "I do." The splendor of the Milky Way and a mountain top vista, the cathedral peace of ancient redwoods and constant song of ocean waves return me to God in praise and thanksgiving. And I can say with the psalmist, "O Lord, our Lord, how majestic is Your name in all the earth!" And beyond!

Where do you see God most clearly in nature, in His creation? What's your favorite way to let Him know how you feel about being created "a little lower than God"? And what does having a personal relationship with the Creator mean to you?

Do Lord, Remember Me

Recently I played a children's CD of Christian songs, and my older granddaughter began humming to the gospel song "Do, Lord". As I began singing along with her humming, I recalled where the lyrics come from: the crucifixion scene where Christ is nailed up between two thieves. I shared that with Kat and suddenly got all broken up in the middle of it. A sensitive child, Kat got teary too, confused about my tears.


But I wasn't sad or in pain, and I quickly reassured her. My tears were simply a sign of the vast joy upwelling in my soul, my extreme thankfulness for Jesus' action on the cross and for the pardon He gave the second thief. The saving grace He made available to all of us.

So I hit the replay button, and we sang it again.

Luke 23:39-43
One of the criminals who hung there hurled insults at him: “Aren’t you the Messiah? Save yourself and us!”

But the other criminal rebuked him. “Don’t you fear God,” he said, “since you are under the same sentence? We are punished justly, for we are getting what our deeds deserve. But this man has done nothing wrong.” Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.”

Jesus answered him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.”

I cannot remain unmoved when I think about all that Jesus did for me. What an awesome, marvelous gift!

"Do, Lord, O do, Lord, O do remember me," rings out the old gospel song. And He does.

Thank you, God!

Thoughts on Steadfastness

“God is not a man that He should lie, nor a son of man that He should repent; has He said and will He not do it? Or has He spoken and will He not make it good?” – Numbers 23:19

The integrity and steadfastness of God. He does not lie or deceive us. His actions are always in line with His Truth. He does not speak promises and then forget or change His mind, as we humans do. Steadfastness is part of God’s character, intrinsic to Who He is.

“The steadfast of mind Thou will keep in perfect peace, because he trusts in Thee. Trust in the Lord forever, for in God the Lord we have an everlasting Rock.” – Isaiah 26:3-4

God calls us to be steadfast in our own selves. Steadfast in our belief in Him. Steadfast in our desire for Him. Steadfast in our pursuit of Him and steadfast in our ways with others just as He is with us.

Rock solid. Have I ever really understood what it means that God is steadfast, unchanging, a rock to stand on, a fortress to shelter in, true in all ways and for always? The same God who loved me when I was lost in sin loves me just as much now. His love has not changed; I have. My perception, my ability to know and understand have been changed by relationship with the eternally steadfast Yahweh.

“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases. His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning. Great is Thy faithfulness, O Lord!” – Lamentations 3:22-23

Bring Forth Fruit

[Jesus said] “Two people owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?” Simon replied, “I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.” “You have judged correctly,” Jesus said. Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, “Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.” Then Jesus said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.” – Luke 7:41-48

“Therefore bring forth fruit in keeping with your repentance.” – Matthew 3:8

“Produce fruit in keeping with repentance. And do not begin to say to yourselves, ‘We have Abraham as our father.’ For I tell you that out of these stones God can raise up children for Abraham. The ax is already at the root of the trees, and every tree that does not produce good fruit will be cut down and thrown into the fire.” – Luke 3:8-9

“But made known openly first of all to those at Damascus, then at Jerusalem and throughout the whole land of Judea, and also among the Gentiles, that they should repent and turn to God, and do works and live lives consistent with and worthy of their repentance.” – Acts 26:20 (The apostle Paul is defending himself to Agrippa, speaking of his ministry.)

That the Word of God is a dynamic living thing is never more apparent to me than when the Holy Spirit gives me two or more seemingly unlike Scriptures. I had been looking for the source of the phrase “He who is forgiven much, loves much.” I ended up with the Scriptures above.

Then I found this quote from a Psalms of Ascent’s blog entitled “He Who is Forgiven Much, Loves Much” by Father Rick. He says, “The one story that will be told everywhere is one that says where there is greater debt, there is greater forgiveness.” Father Rick is of course speaking for the woman washing Jesus’ feet. The one forgiven much, loves much. So what comes of that love? The “fruit in keeping with repentance". This flows together for me with a surety of truth from deep within my spirit, but I’m not sure I’m explaining it well.
Repentance --> Forgiveness --> Love --> Fruit

In my old perspective, the Scriptures from Matthew and Acts sound like a balance sheet idea: I've repented "X" amount so I need to produce "X" amount of fruit. But God’s does not keep such a balance sheet. There are no merits or demerits He’s tracking over our lives. He pours out His grace, covers all our sins, forgives all the moment we repent.

Then God pours His Spirit into our hearts, now empty of sin and quickened with thankfulness. His Spirit mixes with our new love to flow out in acts of love and grace, the fruit spoken of in the passage. The more you love God, the more you are aware of His great gift of forgiveness, then the more you are motivated, inspired even, to pour out that love onto others.

What then messes up this flow and keeps us from being fruitful all the time? What prompted Jesus and Paul to exhort us to do good works in keeping with repentance? I say it is our flesh, our old nature so prone to sin that gets in the way. Just as fatty deposits - plaque - can build up in our veins and arteries, restricting - even blocking - the flow of blood so vital to our bodies, so sin blocks the flow of spiritual vitality and renders us fruitless.

But God is faithful! His Spirit is not taken away, just the flow diminished or blocked. Believers once again can repent and be forgiven, fall in love and be fruitful again.

The Armor of God

I was prompted this week to revisit the Armor of God study (Ephesians 6:13-18) I did earlier this year. So I reread my notes and was again humbled by the lavish love of God. Look at what He has given us for the “day of evil” or the spiritual battles His saints encounter.

"Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people." – Ephesians 6:13-18 (NIV)

Before I was led to study this, I counted six components to the full spiritual armor God provided for his children: the belt of truth & the breastplate of righteousness (vs 14), shoes of readiness from the gospel of peace (vs 15), the shield of faith (vs 16), and the helmet of salvation & the sword of the Spirit (vs 17). Now I count seven; see verse 18 where Paul says “And pray in the Spirit…” (emphasis mine). I say more later. First the components.

Belt of Truth: A belt or girdle protects the lower body from assault. The NIV study Bible notes Isaiah 11:5 here referring to the clothing of the Messiah. The Truth here is the very character of God and His Christ, who He is. By putting on the Belt of Truth, we are clothing ourselves in the character of Christ. “Jesus answered, ‘I am the way and the truth and the life.’” (John 14:6)

Breastplate of Righteousness: The breastplate protects the upper body, especially our vital organs like the heart. This righteousness is Christ’s own, coming from the outpouring of His blood on the cross. “He made Him who knew no sin to be sin on our behalf, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.” (2 Corinthians 5:20-21)

Shoes of Readiness: These shoes protect our feet, give us mobility and stability. Here the NIV Study Bible notes this is the only place the phrase “gospel of peace” is recorded. We can stand firm in the knowledge that Christ has already won the war; He has already brought peace to us. In Him we are on solid ground, no matter our circumstances. “Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.” (2 Corinthians 1:21-22)

Shield of Faith: This shield is tall and broad; it provides full frontal protection from incoming missiles or battering. It is God’s faithfulness, not our own, which protects us. Remember, Jesus said that if we but had the faith of a mustard seed (tiny indeed) we would be able to move mountains. But God’s faithfulness is unwavering and strong. “For the LORD is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations.” (Psalm 100:4-5)

Helmet of Salvation: A helmet covers the head and indicates to whom the soldier belongs. Through Christ’s redemption and grace covering us, this helmet protects our mind and soul, our thoughts and dreams. It also proclaims to others whose we are. “But we have the mind of Christ.” (1 Corinthians 2:16)

Sword of the Spirit: Notice this is an offensive as well as defensive piece. This is the Word of God. As Jesus did in His wilderness temptation, we speak out God’s word and parry the attack of the evil one. It also is the Spirit of God dwelling in us to bring us knowledge, wisdom and understanding during battle. “All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.” (2 Timothy 3:16-17)

Pray in the Spirit: Another vital offensive piece. Paul states that this is our final component for standing firm under attack. We are to keep our line of connection with God open at all times through His Spirit, not only for our own well-being but to assist the saints who stand with us in battle. “Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)

All these pieces are provided by God for us. Even prayer is a gift of relationship from our loving Father God. This is most important and poignant for me: Nothing of my own power is required. For my power is insufficient, like standing in rags on the battlefield. Like grace, my part is to accept and to clothe myself with Christ.

Lord, I accept! I accept and clothe myself with Your armor. Thank, Father God, for your great love and provision.

All this is available to you, as His beloved children. Will you accept? Will you put on His armor?

“You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.” – 2 Chronicles 20:17

“But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.” – 1 Corinthians 15:57-58

Time

It's time.
Time for change.
Time for moving forward.
Time for letting the past go.
Time to acknowledge who I am.
Time to dream of who I will be.
Time to embrace life.
Time to be.